Acts of Aggression

No, I'm not talking about the kiddo.  I am referring to myself.  Kiddo has been stuck in a rut for over a week.  I'm beyond frustrated.  Seems he just can't progress past puréed foods.  I think he would like these foods MUCH better if they were at their normal texture.  So, for the last week and a half, they have been doing chew training with my child.  It is what it sounds like.  And we are both tired of it.  He made his teacher rub his jaw Friday when he received his Homebound instruction.  I'm not surprised. What frustrates me is that he has no difficulty in the mechanics of chewing.  Anyone who has seen him eat his four preferred foods can attest to this.  Today is a big day.  We are supposed to be moving to diced foods.  I know the plan that is in place should he accept the waffle.  What I don't know, is what happens if he doesn't.  I can't go through another week of chew training.  Both of us will lose our minds.  

This is our last full week.  We finish the program next Monday.  Was it worthwhile?- YES.  Am I ready for it to be over?- HELL YES.  I have trouble sleeping at night and usually take a nap.  You would think that without my nap, I get some good sleep because I'm tired.  Nope.  Same crappy sleep pattern.  I am run down and my nerves are frayed.  Everyone and everything bothers me.  While the puréed foods are extremely time consuming, I have yet to purchase another blender because I do not want to stay with puréed foods.  It is for this reason that I haven't stockpiled my freezer.  This is not where I want to end up.  Then I have to remind myself that when we started this process, kiddo ate four foods with limited nutritional value.  He has now added SIXTEEN foods to his repertoire.  I should be happy, but I want it all.  Maybe I am being unrealistic, but I have all the faith in the world that he can do this.  Please keep us in your thoughts today.  

Once the program is over, we are not abandoned by the clinic.  Kiddo becomes an outpatient and will have an appointment once every two weeks for the next 6-12 months based on what is needed.  I will be grateful not to have to make the drive into Atlanta every day, as I have adopted some Atlantean driving habits.  I have become quite the aggressive driver.